maybe it was the umpteenth time that day i had to say "just pretend i'm not here" "just, just go about your day as if i wasn't here."
maybe it was the way the light was dancing everywhere else besides where i needed it.
maybe it was the tangle of chords (which signal that you're in the presence of today's jack-of-all-trades "multimedia" journalist) choking my attempts at concentrating on the task at hand.... an assignment photographing study-abroad students from germany here in the states if you really wanted to know.
or maybe it was the quiet untangled simplicity of unfettered light warming the off-red curtains in an empty room i escaped to briefly to get physically and mentally untangled myself.
and to check my voice mail.
whatever it was. it is the beginning of something new.